24th December,2018

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i don’t know where i am

when i am on my bed

and it is 6.30 after college

and my man doesn’t ring

and my sister is nowhere

and my mother is alone as hell.

 

 

i don’t know where i am

when i don’t eat dinners

don’t walk myself 

don’t draw or list

don’t listen to music

don’t write about things i hate. 

 

 

i don’t know where i am 

where i start to hear the conversations of my neighbours

when i wish nobody remembers me

when i hope my friend does not knock on my door

when i hope god forgives me

 

 

i dont know where i am.

but today i knew,

where i was.

and i don’t want to let go of me.